The Broke Intern

Hello, 

 I am a fashion intern at a up and coming jewelry company and along with that I am also a baby sitter and executive sales and marketing representative for my friends Marketing/ P.R. firm. These will be my personal journeys, stories, issues, and anything else I want to get off my chest. Sometimes life gets a bit crazy and people need to vent in their own way… Some people choose to have a quart of ice cream, others like to hang out at the bar, and others… just like to escape in their own little way. This is going to my way of escaping from the every day challenges and just let loose. 

 My life may be boring to some but, I hope that if you come across my page I can at least bring some laughter to you, or help you cope with something that you may be going through. So, here is to a new beginning……. 

Welcome to my world! 

Getting ready to go see my optometrist and get my Ralph Lauren and Gucci Glasses filled with my prescription lens. Finally! It’s been like 5 years since I’ve last went to have my eyes examined. My lend on my Ralph Lauren Frames are so scratched I can’t even see out of them anymore. 

 Hopefully it goes by quick.. I really don’t feel like staying there long and wait around.

(Pics of what I wore today will be posted later on today) 

Sometimes it’s so hard interning for a company, that you know is doing well and has great potential to being well on it’s way to a big Jewelry line and you’re not getting paid. More so, when your family is struggling just to pay bills and help each other out. 

Sometimes (Often Lately) I feel as if I am never going to get out of here and make my dreams come true. It just gets me…. I am learning the ins and outs of the business and have even sparked interest in some top designers and companies on my twitter account, who are now following me just because I am a blogger and the assistant at this company. I mean am I doing something right? am I slowly getting there and I don’t realize it?

I honestly believe I am… I feel as if all my friends have left me and I know for a fact! most of my family is waiting for me to fail. I just feel alone in this journey for success. It seems as if I am not doing the right thing and makes me feel as if it will never happen. No one said this was going to be easy and that’s how I know I could be well on my way. Look at most celebrities that have started out in their careers… they all felt as if they were alone at one point on their journey to fame. 

Life is just killing me right now….this feels like it will never end. I am trying my best to just hang on and see the brighter side of things but, how long will this last? in the end if things continue on this way I will have to be forced to find some minimum wage paying job, intern for this company, baby sit my sister in the mornings, and continue to look for projects (in hopes a company takes our offer) that my friends firm can take on and pay me my commission.

I really hope things turn around soon. 

So, I’ve been having this awful cough for about two weeks now. I have not been able to get a good workout in because I don’t want this cough to get worse. Anyone who works out and is trying to get ready for summer… knows that two weeks of not working out is waay to much rest! Last year I was already slimmed down and ready to start toning my body up and get it more defined but, I ended up getting hernia and had to stop working out for two months!!! This totally set me back and I ended up just getting lazy, and gaining a lot of weight! 

 I don’t want that to happen this time. I worked so hard, Since the begging of this year, and I don’t want to have another set back and undo everything that I worked hard for. It’s such a bummer to see all your hard work come undone because of pure laziness! 

This time I am determined to slim down and tone up! I won’t let this little cough set me back anymore! I cannot afford to start all over for a second time. 

Here is a nice Picture that I LOVE! to look at and inspire me….. also because he’s so hot! I want to look just as good as him (Not necessarily Look Like him)

This morning got a phone call from my best friend and she actually made me feel much better today. After talking to her about a few things she made me feel ok… She reassured me that I am on the right path and that negative people in my life are not important.

It’s been two weeks since we’ve actually had a real phone conversation and it felt great. Yesterday I wasn’t feeling like myself and had a moment of weakness (we all have those days).

I have just become so frustrated with things lately but, life has a way of testing you and slapping you around a bit. Not to tear you down per say but, to toughen up your skin and build character. I honestly believe that something good is about to come my way. For some reason I can feel it deep down inside my heart. It’s like when you are anticipating that vacation trip that is around the corner or that package that you know is arriving any day. I have no idea what is it but, I know something is coming my way.

Starting this blog has really helped me let out my feelings. Being broke and interning for a Jewelry company (10 months now) and not getting paid for it really takes a lot out of me. I get so much shit from friends and family because I continue to stay with this company and yet, they have not paid me anything. I can’t help that I love what I am doing and love the pressure, exposure, and spreads this company is getting. There is Soo much potential I see here and know something great is going to either come from this or out of it. It’s just a matter of when and time.

When you’ve already sat down on your bed and gotten comfortable then, notice your phone is on the dresser by the T.V.

Ugh!